I want to share a personal story. I was 4-5 years vanliving now and felt pretty disconnected to everything. Now I joined ecstatic dances and eco communities. I really like how ecstatic dance opens my body energies. I met some interesting people in ecocommunities and I resonate with some of them there and it's very exciting. Outside of that environment I basically don't resonate with anyone at all. I either now think creating my own retreat place is the right way to go or just continue enjoying the events for now or changing continent. But there is no way I will ever go back to "normal life"